SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: A bunch of Mumbo-Jumbo

 

My feelings are all over the place at the current moment. 

My birthday is coming up this Monday and I must admit, I cant wait for a new year. I have grown so much that the "adult" Stefanie is an amazing person. I am a damn good woman. With that said, after the ex, I thought I would never let someone else into the darkest corners of my soul. 

But I did.

Scary. It was unexpected and things got fuzzy.

This isnt about the situation though, its about ME.

I have come to the conclusion that I cannot go out with anyone when I have feelings for someone else. It's not fair to the others. It's not cool on my part. It's the adult thing to do. My head is in one place and my feelings in another.

My feelings are all over.

The person I have grown into is amazing. She's beautiful, smart, funny, weird, honest, trustworthy, and all the things that are amazeballs. I am this woman. I would want to be my own friend if I didnt know me! I owe this Stefanie to "Rock Bottom." 

I sit here with "What If..." and I realize life is too short to think "What if?" You gotta take some ballsy chances. You gotta give chances. How else is a flower suppose to grow if you aren't willing to water it and give it a little sunshine? Im not sure what's gonna happen with these feelings I have...all I know is that I dont wanna have it be a regret.

I'm worth it.....I promise.