SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: Not in my cards...?

I am 27 years old. Been thru hell and back. I have a confession. This mothers day was HARD on me for some odd reason. I guess my miscarriage in 07 never fully healed in my soul. I'm good at putting band-aids over wounds and dealing with them when I feel like it. 

I was sad. Cried and I had a big, "What if its not in my cards to be a mom?" Okay I am only 27, I know. I don't want a  kid NOW and I don't want to be a single parent at that. So maybe God is doing me a favor by not making me one. I probably would have ended up one, struggling and probably in a hole. I know, I know...God saved me.

I mean. Finding a job that pays hourly and getting a paycheck every two weeks is HARD. I have applied and applied EVERYWHERE. So maybe getting my life on track before my cards fall into place is key and God is just having my back...?

That's it.

I do wanna be a mom.

I am so not gonna lie to you and say "Nah!" because I do! I want too BADLY and even though I am no rush...I think "What if my eggs run out!" I even made a pact (jokingly) with my friend that if I don't have a baby by 32, hes my sperm donor. Granted he's gay, I think wed have beautiful babies! 2 dads, one mom! SCORE! lol I dunno...

I just had to be honest with you guys. 

Today is the Bubble Run! I cant wait to post pics and show you! 

HAPPY SATURDAY!!